First follow-up.

Now this went great.

Went to bed around 9pm, was so god damn tired. Set the alarm on 6 am. At midnite i went downstairs for couple sandwiches, since i got hungry and didnt fall asleep. At 1 am i removed the alarms.

Oh well, i guess it take some time to change the routines. I need to eat later/earlier in the evening... Later than dinner, but earlier than my evening sandwiches.

Was thinking about signing up for a zumbagold course too, since the 2 other courses are sadly on same day. Means i have nothing fun to do for the rest of the week. But i was afraid i will take on too much, but then i realised, hey, ive been working with cows, nothing is too much. Thats like gym twice a day. Was worried about my joints, and sure i still have swollen ankles, but my knees. During my 8 years with cows, i never ever EVER had problem with the knees. Knock on wood. Now last 2 months i had some problem in the beginning, but not that much. Just few days. Had more problem with the calf muscle.

The bad thing is, if i do the CE-course, some of them will collide, and that kinda sucks. The CE-course is evenings and weekends, and the driving part is daytime.

The swim-gymnastics also ... well.. yeah. The signing up began at 8 am, when i checked 3hrs later it was full already so.. yey. Another option is that i go to hospital, cry my eyes out, and get it thru the hospital as rehabilitation.

In speak of hospitals, in couple weeks its 10 years since i had my first surgery in the neck. This year will be alot of throwbacks, but thats a way for me to remind myself of what i went thru.

But yeah, back to the zumbagold. Still not sure if to sign up or no.. Its not expensive, so if it collides with the CE-course (wich i still dont know if i may participate in), i guess... yeah... well. Later on i should find some pilates, i think that would be great for my joints. It kinda feels like im having arthritis in whole body, or something,

Heres an example of a joint not working properly. This is my left hand. Can easily put my thumb on the little finger.. and put pressure on.

This is my right hand... Barely touching the finger, even less putt some pressure on it.

Oh well. So this is kinda how the rest of the body feels to. I used to be so bendable, but now i cant do anything anymore. Except for my shoulders, they are still extremely bendable. I had 2 funny times when ppl reacted... one was when a pt we had during the truck course just laughed at me and said i never ever need to stretch my shoulders, it might even be bad for me. The other time was when i was around 16-17 yrs old in school during gym, lying on bench and was lifting weights, and i let my both hands touch the floor. The teacher came screaming to me "No no you cant do that!!", and i looked like a ? and asked why not? That was the first time someone told me im way too bendable. Yes i know my friends laugh when i say bendable.

Oh well time to do something else now.


Hope i have less typos today than yday. That was horrible to read. ;)

New years resolutions, part II.

Yep, adding some other new years resolutions, just for fun, and i know im not gonna keep them anyway (atleast not all of them)... lol, but suddenly maybe i do :D

1. Read more books. I do like read (or listen to) books, but only problem is, i always fall asleep. Always!

2. Less bread. I love bread. Its like choclate to others. But i managed to switch from light bread to darker bread, but now im gonna try to eat less bread. I shit you not, thats the best part of the day, my evening-sandwiches...

3. Mix more food. Now this sounds a bit funny, but im stuck in same things. Example, i love broccoli, either cooked or woked. How about some broccoli pie? Or broccoli whatever? Just something since i like alot of vegetables. And of course try new food.

4. Less of the sweets. Yeah this one isnt really that difficult for me, it just goes in periods. Now i had a period of more sweets cos of xmas, but, yeah, nuff with that now. Im not really stuck in that sweet-wheel now, so.. better do it now than later.

5. Oh, now ive got a good one.. GO FIX MY EFFING HAIR! Jees, im ashamed of my hair... havent done anything to it for.... oh i cant say that out loud. Sussi, be prepared im gonna come visit you one day.

6. One ive been pretty lazy with is taking care of my skin. It really went down when i was close to the burn-out about a year ago, and yes Dermalogica is expensive as hell, and i refuse to use something other... but... Yeah. Ill try. My lipbalm was 52 euros. So yes, thats how expensive DL is.

7. One thing i would like to do, but not sure how or if im gonna do it, but that is to get up earlier in the morning. Around 6, do something right from the morning. I realise now when im not working anymore, my sleeping habits are so effed up. And it feels better to sleep in in the morning when u had to get up early few days ;)

8. Okay now this is goin out of hand, i knew this. .But get stronger. I like beeing strong. Oh god damn i miss my shoulders back from the days. Got a bit panic, since the computer didnt find one of my external harddrives... and i havent made a back-up on all pictures yet!

I forgot the others i was thinking about cos the panic, but i guess ill figure out more eventually ;) 

9. Oh now i rememberd one.. GET NEW FRIENDS. Sounds like its something wrong with my friends, but no... I just want more friends to hang out with. Cant understand how thats so difficult here, it was sooo easy on Åland. 

10. Finish the 2 courses i signed up for, and try to find a swim course. 

11. Ive been thinking about the 10-date challenge, but still not sure if im gonna do it or not. I guess ill see that later. 

That will be enough for today, i hope ill remember these in december to see if i kept them or not :D 

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Shit. Had to edit alot of things, so tired i couldnt even type. Not that ever can but.. today was worse than ever :S Shame on me! Im better than that!